this is what i dream my life will look like:
this is what it usually looks like by the end of any given day:
(hint: it’s a pig that’s been slaughtered, stuffed, and buried with hot coals.)
and i’m working on changing that.
it’s just that reprogramming a lifetime of
ingrained influences
takes a while.
longer than i expected, actually.
but i’m on it
(most of the time)
cause really,
i don’t look that good in
pineapple.
Jeanne, I so understand this journey. You keep that gorgeous image in your mind and keep going. I’m cheering you on!!
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thanks, christa. read your post right after i hit the publish button here, and that, my friend, is an example of what we call excellent timing.
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Jeanne, I so understand this journey. You keep that gorgeous image in your mind and keep going. I’m cheering you on!!
.-= Christa Avampato´s last blog ..Step 48: Usefulness =-.
thanks, christa. read your post right after i hit the publish button here, and that, my friend, is an example of what we call excellent timing.
.-= whollyjeanne´s last blog ..nancy, an unlikely shero =-.
It’s so interesting how different our lives actually turn out as compared to how we initially pictured them when we were younger. And you’re right. It’s difficult to train our minds think a different way after years of thinking that life be one way–or years of life “beating us down” in general. Short, simple, poignant post. I love it.
XOXO, Jeanne.
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and i love you, sugar. XOXOXXX
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Well, I bet you do look good in pineapple… just not standing over a slaughtered pig being buried with hot coals. Sorry you feel that way at the end of the day sometimes – Here’s to finding that dreamlike spot in your photo.
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yeah, i’m working on changing that 2nd picture.
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Jeanne, this cracked me up!! the whole thing — the darling la-di-da bridge picture and then ohmy – lol – that poor pig. You got me smiling! And I agree with thewordwire, I just bet you DO look good in pineapple! And Jeanne, I SO get the thing about the difference between what we dream and what we live – grin (and sigh).
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oh, sweetpea: sigh. yes, indeed. sigh.
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Jeanne, this cracked me up!! the whole thing — the darling la-di-da bridge picture and then ohmy – lol – that poor pig. You got me smiling! And I agree with thewordwire, I just bet you DO look good in pineapple! And Jeanne, I SO get the thing about the difference between what we dream and what we live – grin (and sigh).
.-= Square-Peg Karen´s last blog ..Go Touch Hearts =-.
oh, sweetpea: sigh. yes, indeed. sigh.
.-= whollyjeanne´s last blog ..nancy, an unlikely shero =-.
It’s so interesting how different our lives actually turn out as compared to how we initially pictured them when we were younger. And you’re right. It’s difficult to train our minds think a different way after years of thinking that life be one way–or years of life “beating us down” in general. Short, simple, poignant post. I love it.
XOXO, Jeanne.
.-= Jennifer Prentice´s last blog ..Taking the Self Out of Love =-.
and i love you, sugar. XOXOXXX
.-= whollyjeanne´s last blog ..nancy, an unlikely shero =-.
Well, I bet you do look good in pineapple… just not standing over a slaughtered pig being buried with hot coals. Sorry you feel that way at the end of the day sometimes – Here’s to finding that dreamlike spot in your photo.
.-= thewordwire´s last blog ..How To Swim When You’ve Jumped Off The Face Of A Cliff =-.
yeah, i’m working on changing that 2nd picture.
.-= whollyjeanne´s last blog ..nancy, an unlikely shero =-.
There is so much I want to say, but it will wait til we’re sitting on your porch drinking iced tea (assuming you have a porch). You are the bees knees, and your journey is so beautiful it gives me goosebumps. Stay in the kind-to-yourself zone and trust that you will have many, many moments of that gorgeous serenity you seek. That being said, have some fun playing in the dirt too, just maybe not in pineapple. xoxo
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There is so much I want to say, but it will wait til we’re sitting on your porch drinking iced tea (assuming you have a porch). You are the bees knees, and your journey is so beautiful it gives me goosebumps. Stay in the kind-to-yourself zone and trust that you will have many, many moments of that gorgeous serenity you seek. That being said, have some fun playing in the dirt too, just maybe not in pineapple. xoxo
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It does take a while, doesn’t it!? Sometimes I get pretty impatient for that first picture! But as long as we keep “working to change it” – there is hope. Besides, think of all the fun we have trying to get there!
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It does take a while, doesn’t it!? Sometimes I get pretty impatient for that first picture! But as long as we keep “working to change it” – there is hope. Besides, think of all the fun we have trying to get there!
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Oh Jeanne I adore you! And miss you terribly since I’ve been staying away…The beauty is in the journey isn’t it? I wonder if in the end, (after all of our digging is done) we’ll find that the most beautiful stuff was buried under the hot coals, dirt, and ash?
I am picturing you dancing around with a hat made from the top of a pineapple – and you look pretty good to me! 😉 xo
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Oh Jeanne I adore you! And miss you terribly since I’ve been staying away…The beauty is in the journey isn’t it? I wonder if in the end, (after all of our digging is done) we’ll find that the most beautiful stuff was buried under the hot coals, dirt, and ash?
I am picturing you dancing around with a hat made from the top of a pineapple – and you look pretty good to me! 😉 xo
.-= olive & hope´s last blog ..Giving Away a Spot in An Experiment in Radical Creativity! =-.
it definitely takes effort and LOTS of remedial consistency esp. where those lifelong habits and imprints are concerned. thinking well of you…
ah, the wise voice of experience. my friend, acey. “remedial consistency”. yes. and nicely put.
ah, yes. i forget that there's some beautiful stuff buried under the hot coals, dirt and ash. thanks for the reminder.
what is it they say – rome wasn't changed in a day?
well, sugar, i look forward to that day when we sit on my front porch and drink – ahem, tea. yes, i have a porch – and 2 rocking chairs just waiting for us.
That bridge does look pretty good. Of course, there's always the possibility the pig tastes pretty good, too. This, of course, is the perspective of someone who had the bridge waiting for her but decided it would be so ever much more fun to go running off into the bush in pursuit of the pig.
now i'm intrigued.
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